God's Provision

Are there other things I need to be doing right now? Probably.

Is it too soon to be announcing the insanity that was my day? Maybe.

But I wanted to share this while everything was as fresh as possible.

So as you may or may not know, I am currently in Fayetteville, Arkansas for my first round of clinicals for PT school. How did I end up here you may ask? Well, I told my professor I was up for an adventure so she sent me here. Then all of these just super cool but random things kept lining up into place. I actually have family that live in this area who have been so kind and generous in taking care of me. I found this girl I’m living with off air bnb who is so sweet and fun! And I made friends off bumble bff (yeah I really put myself out there) and have loved getting to spend time with them. To top it off, I got a text from my cousin a couple weeks ago saying my aunt was coming to Arkansas for work this week and we would get to spend time together! All these things were just working out so perfectly in a way I couldn’t explain but was very thankful for!

The first couple weeks I was here were hard. It was strange to go from a city I have lived in like my whole life to a place where I didn’t know really anybody. Honestly, my relationship with God kind of took a back burner position. I kept trying to fill the emptiness I was feeling with other meaningless things (mainly food tbh) and it was not helping. Like at all.

Then a few weeks ago, the sermon at the church I am attending here was about seeking the kingdom of God first. It was a seemingly simple message but man, it hit me in a real hard way. I realized that is not what I had been doing. So I got more intentional with planning my time with Jesus. I started giving up a couple extra minutes of sleep in the morning to read the Bible with breakfast and started listening to worship music on my way to work. It should be no surprise, but my mood, my energy level, and my eating habits all started improving! I thought I was on a mountain top I would get to ride forever!

But then today happened…

As I mentioned, my aunt and my cousin had come into town and I got the opportunity to eat breakfast with them before going to work this morning. Per my routine, I put on my worship music and was getting my heart and mind ready for the rest of my day. I was driving on the interstate, as I have done every day, when it started raining. No big deal right? I mean I am from Florida. The sunshine state is misleading. It rains there all the time! I slowed down a little bit but continued worshiping and enjoying my drive.

I had this moment where I heard this voice in my head that said “hey, you need to brace yourself. Satan is about to attack you and you need to be ready.” Within seconds, I was spinning out of control. I hit something really hard and came to a stop.

I woke up very aware of where I was and what I needed to do. I called 911 (who seemed surprised someone who just wrecked on the interstate was making their own call), opened my door, and walked out of my car to avoid sitting in the middle of traffic.

Turns out, I thankfully did not hit another car. Instead I hit the big concrete median. The state trooper said normally when people hit that barrier, the impact causes the car to flip. For some reason I didn’t, and he couldn’t explain that. But I can!

If you know me, you know I have been in this similar situation before. Things were going good with me and Jesus, and Satan tries to literally wreck that. Last time it was a pole in Jamaica. This time it was a slick spot on the interstate. But I got 3 words for him: NOT TODAY SATAN! God is continuing to teach me to trust Him and His power to provide. Do I wish He would have provided me like a million dollars or a husband? Oh, for sure! But this is what He is using to teach me now, so I’m trying to embrace that.

And yes, my car is totaled. And no, it’s not ideal and I’m not trying to minimize that. It sucks. But because God is good, even though I am 13 hours away from home, I still have family here that can love on me. I will have days off work to go car shopping. If something changes and my body seems to show something is wrong, I literally am working at a hospital.

And my rental car which I will be using until further notice is a 2019 Jeep Sahara, which happens to be my dream car. So things are looking up!