And just when I thought my life was already exciting enough,
things just kept getting crazier! As I wrote in my post a couple weeks ago, I
was recently hired as the Girls’ Ministry Associate at Celebration. Which I
think is amazing! I was totally blown away that Aaron would ask me to take on
that kind of role. Little did I know that was not the end.
I had been at Celebration for a whole 2 days when our Senior
Pastor told me he needed to talk to me. I always think worst case scenario so I
was trying to figure out how I had messed up already! But he brought me in and
asked me to take on an even bigger responsibility: to become the Missions
Coordinator for our entire church. Now to be honest, I don’t remember like
anything he said to me after that. I just stood in complete shock. Once again,
I could not believe what I was hearing! Once again, someone came to me with a
position that I didn’t ask for with the full confidence that I could do it. I
literally didn’t even know what to say.
Even after having accepted the job, I still don’t know what
to say. As I was seeking God’s guidance during this whole situation, I kept
hearing Him say, “I’m not going to tell you why you need to do this. You don’t
need to know. You just need to say yes.” And listen, actually saying yes was
the most intimidating thing I have done in a long time. I have no prior
experience. I have no training or real knowledge how to do this. I don’t even
have a college degree! I am not qualified for this at all.
Maybe you’re in this same boat. There is a task or
assignment or opportunity that God has placed in front of you but saying yes is
too terrifying because you don’t think you really have what it takes. Like
somehow God made a mistake. I told God I thought He had. However, I doubt He
looked around at His angels after I said that and was like “wait, did you guys
know that she was only 22? Were we aware that she has no prior office or
administrative experience? Does she even know how to do anything besides sell
chicken?! Oh man, I think we asked the wrong Audrey… Well, I mean it might be
too late now. Buckle down. We’re going to have to work with this.” I have full
confidence that God saw all of my fears and hesitations and said “I know you
don’t feel like you can do this, but you have Me! What else do you need? I know
you think this is bigger than you, but as My child, your whole life’s purpose
is bigger than you. I know you feel like you don’t have the necessary skills,
and yeah, right now you don’t. But with the encouragement of the people you
have around you and with My all-knowing Spirit literally in your heart, I don’t
think we have anything to worry about.”
What is holding you back from being able to say yes? What
seems too big to be true? God does not call those who think they are ready to
serve, He asks those who He knows are ready. We are not the judge of that. I
mean really, we have zero control over the opportunities that come our way. It’s
just our job to say yes and jump in.
“For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use
your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one
another… If we live by the Spirit, let us also keep in step with the Spirit.”
-Galatians 5: 13&25
